WHY?? hey guys its not about me!!!!!

I saw her standing right above my head.. hehe. she was standing on the first floor and i was sitting on a bench from where i can in a perfect angle see her attractive body. I was staring at her just like a hungry cat staring at mice. She is really beautiful. No single english word could define my feelings at the time.. and my best buddy as usual interrupted my day dream. came to me and he realized my vision towards her and said " ey balhaa ei aharun class kujjekey", My buddy, whose tongue works just better than 2-T engine told her about me on the very next day. On the next day we met in Comp Lab, My buddy introduced me to everyone in the lab at the time. The first thing which stopped my naughty eye was that damn sexy yawn.. Oh MY GOD!!!!!!! Meanwhile we began going to group coffees. with which i knew her better.. She is a silent, obidient and most noteworthy she is very much trustable which i realised on the third conversation we had.. After couple of weeks i indirectly proposed her and on the very next day we had a date.. and without any particular reason we got seperated just after a single week.. But i wasnt having any hard feelings about that.. becoz it was just what we call "admire".. Perhaps later i felt like i lost a diamond.. and i used to miss her.. and with the help of my best friend i again approached her.. Those conversations to get approached unfortunately made myself to fall in love with her.. I felt sth which i never felt for anyone else.. I use to steal money and transfer credit from my bro's mobile without even been permitted by him.. Believe me.. I've never done that before..when they knew abt it, they used to tease me by saying "anhenunge dhashu nuvaanamey bunaa myhaa ge haalathu dho".. i never mind it.. becoz i just like it and i loved to hear her name from anybody.. After couple of months we built back our relationship.. From the first instance she was alleging that she too loves me.. Those days with her was just like being in the heaven.. seriously i was very much comfortable and convinced with those passionative emotions we were sharing.. "U BOTH R JUST PERFECT 4 EACH OTHER".. thats what my friends use to tell me!!! No matter, just after 2 months immediately she just got bored of me!!! becoz i wasnt of her type.. i wasnt her love.. i wasnt perfect for her.. i wasnt the person she lovd.. So no other choice.. We broke up!!! BUT STILL I BELIEVE SHE STILL LOVES ME!!! THERE HAS TO BE STH WHICH STOPS HER FROM BEING MINE.. she is still that silent,obidient girl i loved more than myself and will love forever.. WHY?????????